No more will I stand up in your way, I resign…*

*Lyrics from Goodbye My Love by Emilie Mover from her album Mighty Time. I like this song. I even liked the whole album when I spotify‘d it. But I wanted to choose a song that I wouldn’t hear on a regular basis to reveal this bit news. I made the mistake of choosing a song I loved for my post about losing Bec, and I still can’t hear the song without crying. So, sorry, Ms. Mover, I don’t think I’ll be frequenting this song, beautiful it may be.

The Big House: SOLD.

So, recently I’ve been dealing with a slow, but painful transition. Maybe it’s a mid-life crisis, maybe it’s just par for the course when you set out to reinvent your life, maybe it’s a symptom of accepting that your parents (and yourself, thusly) are aging, and we won’t all live forever. Anyway, no matter how you slice it, I’ve been blue. I’ve been sad, and I’ve been just muddling through.

Now, there is good news coming, so don’t fret, but it is bittersweet good news. We sold our house. Perhaps I should have written that like this: WE SOLD OUR HOUSE! We are currently under contract, and, barring crazy circumstances, it looks as if we’re going to actually close this sale, and finally move on from this stage in our life. So, even though we adore the new owners (neighbors of ours who just happened by on a walk on one of those first few warm spring days), we are (I am) so sad to let go of the house.

Letting go is the theme for me this year. I’ve had to let go of a relationship with a member of my family that wasn’t working, that felt abusive and painful. I’ve had to let go of my dream of fixing up my mom’s condo to a place that would be her dream home (and a personal design gem) – we can’t afford it, and frankly, she needs to be able to put her own stamp on the place. The design scheme was my jam, not hers, and I have to let it go. I’m having to let go of the house, and me as the (self-perceived) center of our family. I’m having to let go of the fact that we probably aren’t all going to do family holidays anymore, that our family is spreading apart, and that emotionally it might be for the best for everyone. Letting go is hard, but it always makes room for something new to take its place. Which is a good thing.

So, while we are blue, ok mostly it’s just me (Jeff is excited), we are also looking toward the horizon for new things. I’m working on Project W, I’ve designed a new kitchen/bath scheme for some clients who became friends, and I’m learning new software to help make myself more employable in the future. My future looks bright, and I am grateful for every inch of what I have. But, I am also going to miss this place, this time in my life, this moment in my family (before things turned sour), and this fulfillment of my own childhood dream to have a house to call a home. The brightest spot about that is that we’re leaving the house in great hands, who will love it and care for it like we did, who will have babies and doggies running around for years to come. And that makes me eternally happy.





    I want to start by saying that I LOVE how you tie music lyrics in to your post – genius!
    It seems that everything that’s not so good happens all at once, and makes for a difficult time. I’m sorry for the loss of Bec (I just read the original post). I hope this transition of moving & moving on will brighten you spirits and you will find a sense of peace, family dynamics can be shit sometimes. Keep you head up:)
    Also, would you ever be interested in doing a guest post sometime?

    1. So Happy Home Post author

      Thanks for the kind words and encouragement! Life is full of ups and downs. I’d love to do a guest post sometime! I’m hoping that after I’m back down to one small abode I can focus more consistently on blogging, and spreading the love around to other blogs (like yours!). I’m overdue for a round-up.

  2.'Heather {A Fire Pole in the Dining Room}

    Congratulations on the impending sale. Isn’t it so strange to leave a place that you’re still attached to? I’m sorry it’s not as exciting for you as it is for Jeff. Hopefully when some time passes it will feel good to close this chapter.

    1. So Happy Home Post author

      Thanks, Heather. I go through waves of excitement, and waves of sadness. Hopefully time will heal this, and I’ll feel more excited. Right now, I just feel relieved, and a bit daunted.

  3.'Katie Waddell

    Congrats! It’s definitely bittersweet, I miss our old house all the time. But change is good, especially when it’s change in the form of no more mortgage payments! 😉

Comments are closed.